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Sunday, February 12, 2012
No More Memories, Good Bye
Friday, September 16, 2011
Great Job Guys!
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Sunday, September 11, 2011
Memimpin dan Dipimpin
JLEB! NAMPOL ABIS! Itu pernah banget aku alamin hehehe.
Monday, June 20, 2011
Behind The Scene (Oct 2010)
it's galau-ing mood though.
crying? yes. crying..
it's maybe the fourth times i cry because of - - - . but i dont do it anymore because i'm a tough girl. yeaah !!
sometimes i thought that the reason behind the fallen of my tears was reasonable but sometimes wasnt.
yap. in this wide world there's a problem which has to be understood or not. just experienced it and take the wise learning from it.
well, i wanna write about my .. err .. i actually a lil bit clumsy to say it. but it's true it was hurt.
OCTOBER 12th, 2010
at that day, i went to my campus from the early morning. i have some classes. but the mood at that time was not in the right place. soooooooooo bad. still, i have to ran that day :)
i found anggi, my college-mate, and she told me she wanted to go to bookstore, gramedia matraman. hmm..why not? i wasnt in a good mood and i thougth, went to the bookstore was the right decision. for boosting my mood .. so, after the classes for about at 6 p.m. we went to the bookstore. we took transjakarta to go there. so we caught the pasfes shelter. on my way to shelter, i was reminded of --- and i opened my profile on facebook. then i opened --- profile too. and can you guess what ????
it was SHOCK ME !! it was true. really true.
there was something written in --- status.
it slapped me at that time. "hey, you nothing may!". yaa , just like that how i felt.
i didnt know what i have to say. i didnt know what i have to do. i didnt know what i have to feel.
it just flowed. the questions just came up and fulfill my head. i felt a lil bit dizzy.
at the shelter, i could hide my feeling from my friend but when inside the bus, my tears fell down. it was like a heavy rain. the condition at the bust was so crowded. because it was a work time. all the people on their way home. so i didnt get my seat and i have to stand along the way to the bookstore. i remembered, i had to stand beside the door of the bust. there was a man beside me. i hanged my hand to the hand-hanger and my tears still fell down. fortunately the lamp of the bus only worked a half. so people coudnt see me cry. but u thought the man beside me heard me cry.
during the way to the bookstore i cried a lot. from kuningan to matraman. even my tissue ran out. ooh .. poor me. BUT, i still could hide it from anggi. i shed my tears and acted like nothing was happened. and we arrived at the bookstore. i tried to arrange my feeling. "ok may, there's a lot of books and you can enjoyed them". that was my effort to fix my feeling at that time. but it didnt work. i walked among the selves. i didnt know what book that i have to looked for. i just walked and walked. and i couldnt bear it anymore. my tears fell down (again). and it got worse.
after anggi got what she was looking for, we went home. unfortunately the rain fell down T.T the heavy one. i thought it was a storm. so, we decided to wait for the rain and went to the donuts store near the bookstore.
IT WAS A PERFECT NIGHT. THE UNIVERSE EVEN SEEMS KNEW ABOUT MY FEELING AND MADE MY NIGHT EVEN PATHETIC. what a puuuuuurrfeeect day! blah .. :')
I just sit at the armchair and looked the rain fell down to earth. I COUDNT BEAR IT. beneran deeh .. hiks.
then a thousands copied-pasted question fulfill my head (again). "are you playing with my heart?"
yaah .. you got me. you got me in your heart-game. thank you.
after the rain didnt wild anymore .. hehe, we went home.
at my room, i felt so messy. the questions still came up continuously in my head. and i cried. again.
and it was the worst one.
if there was a recording of my crying at that time, maybe i'll be laughed by others who heard. #blush
that was a life experience to me.
the point that i can take from that experience is dont play with somebody heart that you cant responsible with. yeeah .. it will hurt the people's heart that you've played. and i also hand it and always to remember it.
i've been trough this experience with all of my effort. now i still in the process to arrange my he*rt. fix it. fix it. and fix it.
and the most important thing that i've got from this experience is .. Alloh's affection is number one and my priority. Alloh was warning me with this experience because He more jealousy than me and my jealousy is nothing but Him. because mine is Him. so i'll put this heart first only for Him. Alloh taught me the way to put Him as the most priority in my heart. Only His love is everlasting.
maybe i've been through the wrong path and it's my learning for my "future" life.
all i wanna do is only doing apologize to my Lord and make a correction for my life path.
hopefully i'll be tougher.
thanks to you who has the part of my life journey and because of you i can find the true meaning of life.
because of you i know Alloh still love me and He dont wanna me stay away from Him.
Because He officially my only savior. Now and Later in the living next after this life ..
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Chit-Chat on Wednesday Afternoon
Aku dan wanda kebetulan duduk di satu meja yang sama. Jadinya setelah selesai kelas kita berdua ngobrol panjaaaaaaaang - lebaaaaaaaar ..
Dari a - z pokoknya ..
Awalnya cerita tentang keluarga masing-masing .. trus menjurus-menjurus eeehhh .. ke masalah jodoh! hahahaha .. emang yaa cewek mah kalo udah nyrempet-nyrempet ke hal yang satu ini, jadi makin seru obrolannya.
Singkat cerita, wanda nyeritain tentang kriteria lelaki idamannya nih .. (muehehehe .. maaf yee ga pake sensor nama lo wan) hahaha ..
Intinya aku dapet beberapa hal yang wise banget dari nih anak. Keren lah lo wan ... Dan ternyata masalah-masalah yang bakal kamu hadapin nanti ketika .. ehem .. sudah memiliki pasangan hidup .. ehem (tenggorokan mendadak gatel) ga semudah yang kita bayangin. Asaaal kita tau rumusnya dari awal InsyaAlloh bakal mulus .. hihihi ..
Nah, disini aku bakalan ngasih tau kriteria pasangan hidup yang aku pikir boleh kok yang lain buat ngikutin. Ga ada ruginya menurut aku. Eiiiiiiiiitss .. bagi yang nganggep post-an aku kali ini rada ga penting ya gapapa .. yang nganggep penting .. tengkyu so much :D hahaha .. yaah, I know that i'm only 20th and i guess i'm too early to say a thing like this .. but it's no problem . Because it's a must that we'll face it right? hehe
Well, kata si wanda gini nih.. dia pengen ntar pasangan hidup dia :
- Nganggep orang tuanya adalah orang tua dia juga
- Nganggep sodara nya adalah sodaranya dia juga
- Sholat lima waktu dan bisa ngaji
Kalau aku pribadi sih .. SANGAT terinspirasi . hahihuheho .. ehem .. #kedipkedipmata
Thanks yaa wanda .. our chit-chat yesterday has opened my eyes and mind wider than before.
Sering-sering yeee ngasih tips-tips bijak .. ahahahahhaa .. ntar gw buku-in #eh #loh? :)
cheers,
mayang alfina
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Just Comes Up Spontaneously
I bet you ever heard about it . And how was it going ? happy ending ? ABSOLUTELY YES!
And how was the main characters ? ABSOLUTELY CHARMING and BEAUTY!
And now , how about the real life ?
The reality is not as smooth as the story in the fairy tales and either the main characters .
Yaa .. in the real life you won't meet such those things easily. It DOES exist but sooo rarely. But I do believe, every people have their own story and also how about they're ending the story .. and the one similar thing that i want to emphasize is you'll met the miserable condition first then you'll get your truly happiness .. :)) like the most of the fairy tales did . It truly happen ..


cheers ,
m-myflolite
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Schiffman and Kanuk have totally made me crazeeeh .. -__-''

...Finally , I've found that book !! kyaaaaa :O
After 2 weeks . yaah .. 2 weeks i guess . I've looking for the Schiffman and Kanuk's literature book . Consumer Behavior . That book is useful for my business research assignment .
Huaaaaaaaaaahhhh ... totally stupidity of me ini sih namanya ..
Kenapa baru kepikiran buat nyari di perpus kampusnya sekarang coba? Hadeeeehh ... -___- malah kemaren-kemaren kepikiran buat ke Perpumda sama ke Gramedia buat nyari tu buku . TERNYATA OH TERNYATA ada di PERPUS kampus gw sendiri . How stupid i am kan ?? hahaha .. ketawan deh emang jarang ke perpus .. hahaha
Yak, jadi gini .. gw ada tugas kelompok bikin riset tentang loyalitas konsumen gitu terhadap Toko Buku Gramedia di Matraman. Nah, salah satu literatur yang kita dapat adalah dari bukunya Pak Schiffman sama Pak Kanuk ini. Mereka berdua nih ngomongin tentang dimensi-dimensi pengukuran loyalitas konsumen. Nah, dosen gw minta sumber aslinya dong .. Bingung laah gw nyari dimana .. sempet sih terlintas buat nyari di perpus kampus. Tapi cuma lewat , kagak pake mampir .. hahaha . Malah lebih kepikiran buat nyari di perpumdan atau di gramedia (nah loo ? ini niat nyari buku atau mau jalan2 ? )
Udah browsing juga sana-sini tapi ga ada e-booknya, baru kepikiran lagi lah gw buat ngecek online di perpus kampus gw. *Thanks ya Allah perpus gw bisa di cek online :)* . Walhasil, setelah gw ketik keyword di search bar-nya , sekonyong-konyong tu buku muncul di booklist perpus kampus gw .. TAU GITUUUUUUUU .. DAREEE DULUUUU GW NYADAAARNYAAA .. -________-"
Ga tanggung2 cuy, bukunya ada 2 edisi. Yang 9th edition ame 10th edition. Keki banget ga gw. Oooohh .. betapa odongnya gw. Sumber yang deketnya--kalo kasarnya nih TINGGAL NGESOT doang juga nyampe-- hahahaha malah ga kepikiran. Yak gw merasa aib gw terbongkar niih .. hahaha. Tapi gapapa lah yaaa.. biar bisa jadi pembelajaran bagi gw dan yang baca post gw ini .. hihihi .
Hmm .. dari sini gw jadi sadar. Aware with your surrounding itu penting, guys!! Jangan kayak gw .. udah muter-muter sana-sini ampe mikir ke tempat yang jauh malah, eh ternyata ada di depan idung sendiri ..
Hal kayak gini ga cuma terjadi saat lo nyari barang, buku, or something. Dalam hidup kita banyak hal yang sebenernya deket sama kita tapi kita berasa kayak dipasangin kacamata kuda. Cuma liat ke satu arah doang tanpa ngeliat ke beberapa arah yang lain, yang justru mungkin ada jawaban yang ingin kita dapetin. Baidewei, tau kan kacamata kuda? nih gambarnya gw kasih .. hihihi .

Nah, kalo udah kayak gini, kesempatan yang pada awalnya emang rejeki kita bisa jadi malah ga jadi apa-apa buat kita. Alhamdulillah banget kalo kita nyadarnya ga kelamaan (ga kayak gw hehe) . Lah kalau nyadarnya lambreta banget ????? -____-
So, guys .. be aware yaa sama keadaan sekitar lo . Dalam hal apapun tentunya. Kejadian kayak gini emang keliatan ga terlalu bermasalah kalau lingkupnya masih kecil tapi kalo udah menyangkut hajat hidup orang sedunia gimana *agak lebay* ?? hehe. Dan tentunya postingan ini gw buat juga untuk ngingetin gw buat ga ceroboh dalam mengambil keputusan dan ngingetin gw kalo mikir jangan terlampau jauh. Perlu sih jauuuh , tapi kalau yang deket malah ga disadari .. ?? (kayak gw). Kan gaswat banget tuh jadinyaa .. :)
Gw jadi inget salah satu pribahasa nih ..
"SEMUT di seberang lautan keliatan , tapi GAJAH di pelupuk mata tak nampak"
hehehe .. cukup menggambarkan ke-odong-an gw sih .. :P
okelah .. lega sudah gw menumpahkan cerita keodongan gw di postingan gw yang ini.
c yaaa guys .
Watch your sight and leap .. ^______^
regards,
m.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Mimpiku . Mimpimu .
Mimpi . Impi . Impian . Bermimpi .
Everybody in this world must be has dreams .
Dan siapa sih yang gak pengen mimpi-mimpinya terwujud .. hmm . berkhayal . it's the interesting thing i guess .
hehehe .. berkhayal yang baek2 tapi lo yaaaa .. hahahaha :D
Tapi, di post-an kali ini bukan tentang khayal mengkhayal . Lebih kepada mimpi-mimpi yang pengen aku wujud-in .. :) *semoga terwujud amiin*
Semakin banyak yang liat kan semakin banyak yang aminin .. hehehe *i hope* :)
Oh yaa .. beberapa waktu yang lalu ada dosen tamu dari sebuah perusahaan Jamu . Awalnya gw kira bakal ngasih cerita-cerita beliau tentang usahanya .. eh eh ternyataaaaa !! beliau malah cerita tentang motivasi dari awal ampe akhir .. hehe .
Yaaa .. ga rugi2 juga sih . At least kita semua dapet pencerahan dalam mennyusun mimpi-mimpi kitaa .. yuhuuuu !!

Kata-kata si bapak yang paling gw inget adalah :
"THE LAW OF ATTRACTION"Jadi, ketika kita menyusun mimpi-mimpi kita dengan detail dan spesifik , kita berusaha untuk menarik apa-apa yang menjadi mimpi kita untuk menjadi kenyataan. Itulah hukum ketertarikan a.k.a The Law of Attraction.
Gw kepikiran buat nulis ini karena minggu lalu pas gw liqo' , mentor gw Mba Hanie , ngasih tugas buat ngelist mimpi-mimpi kita untuk 5 tahun ke depan . Hmm .. sounds interesting kaan .. hehe
So, I'll publish the dreams yaaa in this post :)
(catatan gw saat liqo')
MIMPI GW 5 TAHUN KE DEPAN :
“5 Tahun ke depan saya berharap, saya sudah mendapatkan gelar sarjana satu saya. Lalu saya mendapatkan pekerjaan di bidang yang saya minati. Bidang yang saya ingin geluti adalah di bagian Human Resource atau Project Management di sebuah perusahaan multinasional atau perbankan syariah.
Saya akan bekerja sambil mencoba untuk membangun bisnis kecil-kecilan di bidang kerajinan tangan dan membuat kue. Karena saya sangat menyukai kedua hal tersebut. Saya berharap saya bisa melanjutkan hidup saya setelah kuliah di Kalimantan Timur. Tempat saya lahir dan besar. Entah mengapa saya memiliki keinginan yang kuat untuk tidak tinggal menetap di Jakarta. Untuk sementara waktu setelah kelulusan mungkin saya akan menetap tetapi untuk jangka waktu yang panjang saya berencana untuk pindah. Salah satu alasannya adalah saya ingin tetap melihat langit biru dan pantai .. ehehehhe .. bukan itu sih alasan utamanya, tapi kedua hal tersebut menurut saya penting .
Hmm .. kalau untuk future family nih hehehe .. saya berharap kalau memang diberi Allah keluarga baru tentu saya menerimanya kalau memang sudah takdir dan jalan hidup saya hehehe. Tapi kalau memang belum yaa , usaha laaahh yaa .. hahahahahaha ... Oh yaa, saya juga berencana untuk mengambil S2 saya ke Jepang atau Inggris dengan beasiswa. Semoga apa yang saya tulis disini dapat menjadi doa bagi saya .. amiin”
Sip . siiip ... boleh kan bermimpi ?? Yap . tentunyaa !!!
So don't be afraid if you have a lot of dreams ya guys ..
pick your own dreams ! hamasah ~
cheeers .
m .



